No, I'm Not Emo

I lie here, having a thought, a think.

You'd think I'm on a bed, let alone the brink.

Looking out all I see is unecessary.

Looking in all I find is caring.

The anger lestening from my self inflicted horrors.

The realisations of the judges and the lawyers.

In my mind only I'm to blame. 

The search for another suitor all too easy.

The prevention of which, all too simple.

A little broken, a bit to mend.

Worth it all? We'll see in the end.

For now I'm hopeful.

Not so hard to be, in this calming lull.

Simple rhyming, for reasons unknown, the killers, human?

Throughout everything, i find it easy to see.

After all of this, there's more to perceive.

Much more.

Splendid Day

SPENT the day with my beautiful girl today! T'was good! I had Chris over last night, so after going up to see KitKat after having a MASSIVE lamb shank (it turns out...) after she got back from visiting Hull university I went walked the vast distance to his house! Unfortunately my inability to read 24 hour clock times meant that there wasn't a bus for an hour and half... bearing in mind it was 8:30 and our respective parents were a bit drunk he got a bit miffed... put me over his shoulder... and ran to the next bus stop with the timetable on it XD Amazingly the 42 came when we arrived there, so we didn't have to get a taxi!I spent the night downloading SO many apps! My favourite of which is the one on the iPhone advert which turns your phone into a window to the heavens! Letting you see what the bright light you are looking at is... turned out it was Jupiter, Uranus and Oh in a line :D Then Chris drank some cider i found in the garage called 'Gaymers'... we laughed... then he fell asleep on me after some groping of my behind ><

SO yes... today... I woke up at the respectable time of 10:45 to go pee, as is my routine thanks to my internal pain barriers being lowered :( of course I went back to bed and Chris spent the next 45 minutes trying to get me out of bed... or see me naked... So we had marshmallow on toast and wriggle giggled it outa there at 12 to catch the bus! Kat, having spent the night working till 1am had only just woke up, so I encountered her in her pj's all sexy looking and warm xD After watching her family eat I got her to make me a goddamn sammich while I was outside sunbathing >< (I lie... I cut the cheese :P) So after an incredible time with Snookums I ran off home [on a bus] and changed into a sexier attire (a more formal  black with red shirt which Kat loved XD) and we hoped on off to Salvatores to celebrate 2 wonderful months together! Jack had told us to 'Order a side dish of garlic bread and call it Jack.........i can watch over the romance safeguarding it from any anti romantic protesters' so that we did! [below] I had such a good time chatting away with my sexy girl! I feel so lucky! Once again she was all giggly and cute, loving dinner out! We had the massive garlic bread between us, ribs for me and Pâté for her. Then we moved onto the equally huge main course of pizza tropicale and spaghetti carbonara. Neither of us could finish them! Haha! Kat wanted to take me out for a meal after last months escapades... Thank You Baby for a most perfect day and evening :) I look forward to next months meal out... where shall I take you this time...? XD I think it shall be a surprise again! 

ON our way it got quite cold, so i was a gentleman and braved the elements by giving her my jacket, luckily the time flew by as we played a 2 player reaction game on my phone, then on the bus causing us to almost miss our stop! Haha! after jogging to my house to stay warm and looking at random stars, giggling away and making faces at each other we watched the F1 with Tony and Vicky for an hour or so, lay on the sofa all snuggled as Kat started to get sleepy :)

AND today's humorous image to be stumbled across while on my way home to get changed for my meal: 

That's all from me folks! Life's good, and will hopefully remain that way... homework permitting >< love love! 

Extreme Internal Pain

LYING on my face makes the pain go away....

I'LL explain: Last Saturday I was happily eating an incredibly tasty subway sandwich with KitKat when I suddenly started having intense stomach cramps to the point where walking around hurt... pretty much has set the scene for the next week till this point! After a quick trip to hospital after spending the night with Kat (There is nothing I love more than waking up next to the girl I love... and not elbowing her in the face... twice >< SORRY!) I found out that I have a stomach inflammation called 'Gastritis' and since then there are only 2 things that make the pain stop; eating vast amounts of food to keep my stomach full at all times and lying face down!

ON that day however I was helping out the biology department talking to perspective Cardinal Newman goers and explaining how amazing college is! Kat was doing the physics one so i decided to tag along for the free sausage/bacon butties from the IN-COLLEGE costa coffee xD It was a good feeling knowing I was one of the students who helps to decide whether you choose to spend the next 2 years somewhere, and what to do. I was helpful as far as I know and had a great time talking to the biology teachers out of class :)

WEDNESDAY pretty much wiped me out as I spent 4.5 hours doing homework... and for the first time since I started college, I got home and had no homework hanging over me! This was of course smashed the next day but it felt good for a short time XD The extreme homework is due to the resit of Biology F212 that i decided to do... and because I didn't drop a subject I effectively have another A level to do... so that's 5!!! YAY!!!! ¬¬

JUST trying to remember what I have done in the last month since I have posted now! Haha!

AH! Went to Alex's party on the 25th! That was good! Everyone was there from my friend-group and we all had a laugh with drinks in our hands! Had a chippy at Kats before continuing on up to Lancaster to the party, always laughing and talking :) Despite it being an 18th birthday party and jack also being of age... it still comes down to me to go buy people alcohol from the corner shop >< Haha! After lots of chatting with everyone we a few of us left on the bus and had a laugh as I suddenly exclaimed 'WHOAH... I'm on a bus' at the sudden realisation that I wasn't at Alex's house any more and that one of the street lights wasn't as bright as the others!... I was a bit drunk xD Back to Kats for sleepy times :) After which we spent the entire day lounging about and staring at each other, an amazing lazy day (most of it spent in bed >< Haha!)

DENTISTRY UPDATE: UCAS form all done and sent off... that's it now... Just got to hope that Sheffield, Manchester, Liverpool or Leeds wants me! There was a bit of a kerfuffle when taking the UKCAT (UK Clinical Aptitude Test) which comprises of different types of tests such as verbal reasoning, matching patterns and other such abstract stuff... But for the Maths section they gave me a piece of paper and a pen, and off I continued thinking it was a REALLY hard mental arithmetic exam... Turns out they hadn't given me a calculator like they were supposed to... Amazingly it was my highest score (650/900) which is well above average WITHOUT a calculator... so maybe it can work in my favour as a note is being put in my UCAS form from UKCAT saying they were in the wrong and I'm amazing in every way... ah well... all I can do is wait now